I can only think seriously of trying to live up to an ideal, to improve myself, if I am split in two pieces. There must be a good โIโ who is going to improve the bad โme.โ โI,โ who has the best intentions, will go to work on wayward โme,โ and the tussle between the two will very much stress the difference between them. Consequently โIโ will feel more separate than ever, and so merely increase the lonely and cut-off feelings which make โmeโ behave so badly.