I think I had set-backs, but I still always had that belief that I was going to play for Tottenham Hotspur. Even when I went out on loan to clubs, it was always to come back and be a Spurs player.
We've always had a philosophy at Spurs to play out from the back, to play with style, to play out from the back and that's the way I've always been brought up and to come into the first team is no different.
I think back into when I was in college coming out, what I had to go through, the steps I had to make. And I still play with that chip on my shoulder to this day and I always will, so that's something that'll always stay with me.
I didn't really think about going to another club; I wanted to be a Tottenham player and play at Tottenham.
I'm a big soccer fanatic, and although I support a team called Tottenham Hotspur in London - I love that team, I wear their symbol around my neck on a chain - I've always had a soft spot for this little club.
Even when I was doing supporting roles, I always had this belief that one day the opportunity to play a lead would come my way.
Big, historic football clubs have the ability to come back, even when everything seems lost. There is a strong inner belief within every player and also the fans.
I always say I enjoyed my time at Spurs and I improved as a player so I don't look back and think 'what if?'
To play against Luka Modric is always special because he's an exceptional player and, of course, a living legend from Spurs, where you still hear a lot about him.
I like to come home regularly and, when I do, I need something to do on Saturdays. I can't think of anything better than the mighty Tottenham Hotspur.
I think going on the road for a couple games, I always feel it's better to go out for a couple games than just one game and come back. The out-and-backs, to me, are not my favorites.
The training at Tottenham is intense, but the structure is set out perfectly - in the gym, running, sometimes double sessions. Every player at Tottenham is in great shape.
I want us to be brave and aggressive and play like Tottenham Hotspur.
Most of the clubs I have had, they have been in a precarious situation when I have taken over and I have had to change it, even going back to Scarborough and all that.
I remember when I left Newcastle to join Tottenham Hotspur, the money was in no way a motivation for me, it was all about becoming a better player.
My parents were very strict and had rules for me and, if ever I was playing outside, I always had a set time to come back in.
I had three sessions of chemotherapy so it was really tough, it was hard to go through it. But while I was going through my treatment, I was always motivated that I was going to come back and play for India. I think that's what kept me going and got me through.