I went to West Ham and I had a manager that played me out of position. To be honest with you it was very tough to take.
I see it every week - parents shouting and screaming at kids. My dad was the same. He was always there, but he never interfered. Ron Greenwood, who was the manager of West Ham when I was a kid, wouldn't allow any parent to shout from the touchline. He thought players should be allowed to think for themselves.
I think that with West Ham, it was more complicated for me. It happened naturally; there was urgency to leave West Ham.
My family have always been West Ham fans, so growing up, I used to go and watch them, and so I was a West Ham supporter.
I was at Arsenal but I didn't like the manager of the under-10s at the time so I went to West Ham where my brother played.
If I was a normal player at West Ham and wanted to join a Chinese club, nobody would have said anything. But since I was a leader at West Ham and thought about that offer, I was suddenly a bad man.
When I was a player, you only left the club if they wanted to get rid of you. That was your team - if you were at West Ham, you didn't leave until the manager wanted to replace you. You didn't think about playing for Arsenal or Chelsea.
When I speak to my dad and my wife, and friends, they say it's 10 years at West Ham, you're leading the team out every week, when you sit back and really think about it, it's very rare.
Playing left midfield a lot at West Ham has been tough but the manager has put me there and I've got every faith in what he's doing.
I actually had the chance to sign for Newcastle before I went to West Ham; I didn't in the end because they had got rid of their reserve team. There were a few clubs interested but I liked what West Ham had to offer and never regretted signing for them, I loved it straight away.
Harry Redknapp is a fantastic manager. He knows how to talk to players. You need that belief from your own manager. He tells you just to go out there and do your thing. That is what Harry has got more than anyone else.
I'm as passionate as the fans, I want West Ham to do well whether I'm in the team or not.
At West Ham I had a fantastic relationship with the board but I was really upset with them when they sold the club without telling me. I then had new owners I didn't get on particularly well with.
I have very special memories of the West Ham fans.
Ham's substantial, ham is fat. Ham is firm and sound. Ham's what God was getting at When He made pigs so round.
I'll do everything I can to get West Ham as far up the table as I can.