There is a different sort of edge when you come up against England. Even when it's a friendly game you still get that fear in you that if you get beat it won't be good but if you win it will be the best thing going.
Playing in midfield is a different ball game. You have to be on the half-turn all the time, have a different picture in your head of what is behind you and in front of you. Playing at right-back is different again.
I made my England debut when I was 17, against India. I was the first Asian to play for the England women's team, and I did have mixed feelings playing against the country my parents are from but I was born and bred in England and I've always known I wanted to play for my country.
They value different things in every country. In England, it's very physical. You tackle, you shoot. I love watching it. In Spain, it's different. Pass the ball, move, find the space.
I got tired of Los Angeles, and I got tired of the game a bit. I wanted to have a different life experience, so I moved to England, and I lived in England for eight years, and I worked there.
It is very tough in England. Every away game is hard, of course. And normally, if you're a big club like Chelsea, you're supposed to win games at home against smaller clubs. But in England, that's not the case. We must play well every game.
One day, I was playing 'The Game of Life,' the board game, with a mess of kids, and I wasn't quite sure how, but it seemed different than the game I remembered playing as a kid. So I bought an old game, from 1960, and it was different.
But it's different in England. We have different players from different races, even in the lower leagues. They don't have that in some places abroad.
I'd say I am a fly half. As regards being 12 for England, I've not tried to play any different. I guess I've been like another 10. Obviously, you do some things differently, and you might not have your hands on the ball as much - but you're still in the game and constantly communicating.
Obviously ice hockey's much faster. You play street hockey, most likely, with a ball. Where the puck is more difficult to maneuver with. There's not too many things that are different. Playing on the ice is totally, totally different than playing on the street. It's totally a different game in that aspect.
Playing for England in Spain was really hard but racism is still in the game, which it shouldn't be. I think when you're playing the best thing to do is block it out like you do with everything else.
There are teams in England who play the football I like, keeping the ball on the ground, playing a quick game with one-twos, pressing their opponents high up the pitch. If one of these clubs were interested in me, I'd adapt to them well, and they could adapt to my way of playing, which isn't so common.
Celtic are one of the great clubs of the world. There's a pressure here that's different. You have to win every game. There's not a club in England that has that.
I try to play in one way all my career and here, with high pressing, but it is different in England. Many times the ball is more in the air than the grass, and I have to adapt.
Playing for your country is very different from playing IPL.
I remember my second game for England - we lost 2-0 to Norway, I was subbed and didn't do myself justice and I thought that was the end of my England career.