I went to West Ham and I had a manager that played me out of position. To be honest with you it was very tough to take.
Obviously when you grow up in the area you love playing on the street, and to go from playing on the street with my mates to playing at Upton Park is a bit surreal, and 15 years on to still be in the heart of the West Ham midfield is quite good going!
When I was a player, you only left the club if they wanted to get rid of you. That was your team - if you were at West Ham, you didn't leave until the manager wanted to replace you. You didn't think about playing for Arsenal or Chelsea.
My family have always been West Ham fans, so growing up, I used to go and watch them, and so I was a West Ham supporter.
I'm only 20; you've got your whole career ahead of you. I'm just focused on playing for West Ham and playing with a smile on my face and enjoying it.
I think that with West Ham, it was more complicated for me. It happened naturally; there was urgency to leave West Ham.
When I left West Ham in 2004 there was a chance of them signing me instead of Spurs, but it isn't something I think about too often. I've been spoilt during my career.
You've been entrusted with a lot of money and a lot of careers, and a lot of people put their faith in me, and every director goes through that every time.
In the midfield, I'm not the most comfortable playing with my back to the goal, and in the midfield you find that ball a lot.
I actually had the chance to sign for Newcastle before I went to West Ham; I didn't in the end because they had got rid of their reserve team. There were a few clubs interested but I liked what West Ham had to offer and never regretted signing for them, I loved it straight away.
If you are playing on the left of a four-man midfield, there are a lot more defensive duties to do, so you can't find the times to keep attacking. But if you're on the left of a 4-3-3, I find that position really good as well.
Although my dad Harry is the manager of West Ham, we get on very well.
I was at Arsenal but I didn't like the manager of the under-10s at the time so I went to West Ham where my brother played.
The satisfaction for me is that when you leave somewhere you look at what you are leaving and I know I left West Ham in great shape.
The man who comes to take care of my piranhas told me that if I left West Ham he would kill all my fish.
I'm really happy that West Ham and Manuel Pellegrini have given me a chance to be playing again.