I was player-manager at Sheffield United. I played my last ever game for them. It was terrible. We lost 4-1, I think to Sunderland. Fancy that, a Geordie, being forced to retire because of a defeat to Sunderland.
When I was very young, coming into the Sunderland side, if we got beaten, I'd be very down. I'd go home, and it would drag on for days, I'd be thinking about the game. I was from Sunderland, felt things like a fan, and got really down.
I'm fortunate that Newcastle and the fans welcomed me with open arms because I know it's not easy being a former Sunderland player.
I'm very happy about my career, and I'm proud of having played in Bolton and Sunderland.
At Sunderland, if I had a bad game, it wasn't like it was the end of the world.
I remember, when I was at Sunderland, we made the FA Cup final and played in front of 20,000 at Derby.
It's very important to have a coach who wants to win every single game and who approaches them like they are not a problem - whether it is against Sunderland or Man City or against anyone.
It was through the Hammerheads that I got a route into the professional game, via a trial at Sunderland from Mick McCarthy and then an invitation to come back to Carlisle in 2004.
Michael Owen's wonder goal against Argentina in 1998 was one defining memory, and as a Sunderland supporter, I remember crying my eyes out after they lost that play-off final against Charlton. Much as that hurt, it made me realise how much I wanted to play the game.
At Sunderland I balanced the books and managed them to this position of 10th and 13th. My record stacks up.
When you retire, you start to try different things and you choose the one you enjoy the most. As a player, it's difficult to know if you'll be a good manager or not because you might think you can't deal with the dressing room or won't enjoy the game from the sidelines. There's also punditry and careers on TV, so football gives you many different options.
I don't know if that result's enough to life Birmingham off the bottom of the table, although it'll certainly take them above Sunderland
I played no sports well. Because I was a boy in the United States Of America, I was forced into Little League and played horrible Little League baseball, and played football and basketball in school situations where I was forced to.
I always said to the directors that the minute a player becomes more powerful than the manager of Manchester United, it's not Manchester United. You have lost control of the whole club. So I always made sure that I was in control. They always knew who the manager was.
I experienced it at Sheffield United, where there were rumours that Everton were coming in for me and I was going there for a million pounds. At that time, I am a kid who uses social media like Twitter. Sheffield United fans were saying they would walk and carry me there, wanting me to go. As a boyhood Sheffield United fan, that still cuts me deep.
As a Sunderland fan, I loved Tommy Sorensen.
Sunderland is like a family and I'm very happy to be part of it.